I have come to the conclusion that I may not be capable of relaxing. My brain is constantly finding the next possible crisis, even if there may not even be one. Is the house clean, laundry caught up, do the kids need anything, did I forget to put something on the calendar, are bills paid, did I get everything for lunches and dinner, are we going to be short on money before the paycheck hits the bank, did I offend or upset someone? etc.. Than the what ifs may pop in. These are the things that I realize are unlikely to happen but they still find a way to make it into my thoughts. They are normally about finances, something happening to one of my kids, health problems, worries about my Dad, but there certainly is no limit to the off the wall crazy shit my brain can conjure up. I truly envy people that have the ability to turn this off. I am a work in progress, maybe someday I’ll get there. I do think it’s important to be open about your feelings and share who you are. Why? You never know who else is out there feeling the same way. Especially us Moms who feel like we’re barely surviving this stage of life. How do you find ways to relax when your brain doesn’t want to?
P.S. Nothing annoys me more than someone telling me to relax
